And then she was gobbled up by the giant machine....

I'm angry, well more than angry, I would use the term livid. Livid seems like a good description.... BLEH!

So for the last couple of weeks I've been trying to enroll for the spring semester. I dropped out of Civ because the mandatory discussions broke down into "Do you know what muslims do to their women? My pastor went on a mission and..." or, my favorite, "No, you're wrong Sara, American lives are more important than those of other nations. Our safety is more important than them!" You know, if I hear one more middle aged white male justify the attrocities of war by discussing WOMEN'S ISSUES, Imma fucking snap. If I even see that specific guy EVER again at the smoker's table cracking jokes at the lady who walks to her car wearing hijab, I think I'm going to cut him.

Dropping because I snapped on the entire class seemed like a great idea, I couldn't take it anymore. But the cathartic snapping left (along with the other snapping) me with below halftime status.

Today, Brian wandered outside into the cold to take out the cat box and check the mail. I got a mail from my school, saying my records are on hold. HOLD. It's not being able to get ahold of my absentee advisor, it's a financial aid issue, why can't they just tell you that? So I go off to do exit counseling.

Unless I die, or am horribly disfigured to the point of being permanantly disabled, they will garnish my wages until my little debt is paid off. And if I have no wages? I'll lose my professional license! Does anyone ever wonder about that bum that is down by the bus station downtown that holds a Ph.d in Physics that digs out of the garbage? Do you wonder why he does that and isn't working? Maybe it's because he couldn't complete the exit counseling without going completely insane!

I don't know if I'm ever going to get through college or not. Every time we start a class, the instructor likes to know what your major is, your religion (oh it's so optional) and talks about abortion and godlessness in society. I was told so many times by the media that community colleges are liberal, they have agendas. Why doesn't anyone ever discuss the conservative agenda? Why doesn't the enrollment catalogue come with warning labels;

"This instructor has been known to proselytize about homosexuals being evil, citing how they tried to rape the angels at Sodom"? "This instructor is a fundamentalist pastor that only takes a few classes a semester because preaching doesn't feed his SIX children (age: 34. married for six years), but he continues to preach to the class, to spread his message of Bush being an honest man, annointed by Christ to rule us and bring us back to the path of righteousness"; "This professor is head of the Engineering Society, she will treat you like a retard because you do not understand algebra, pick a friendlier option if you're not hard up".

The preacher was my favorite adversary of all time. I remember him talking about how we had to help Israel to reclaim all the land it posessed in Biblical times, to bring about the End Times. The middle-easterners were in a place they didn't belong, and they contributed nothing to the region, so they needed to GIT. Asshole.

Dammit I'm tired of it all.